October 23, 2011

08.30 am

I think I find myself sentimental again. *actually I always am LOL

These days, I’ve been listening love songs, and avoiding “broken heart” song… yet, some of them also show broken heart people learning of accepting for being left (what’s wrong with my language?).

Indeed, I don’t know why. Probably it’s just to help me heal my heart that some day I can be in love again with someone who loves me in return, not having one-sided love like I do now.

 Yet, how I find love is so complicated as human heart is. Everyone’s special. One might have one that doesn’t change shape for long time like what I have, but the other might easily yearns for “new toys”.

Hate that I love you-Rihanna. It’s disgusting how I love you, Disgusting-Kesha. Indeed, showing what I feel and ‘m so fed up with that, having this silly little thing but I just can’t stop myself. Ugh! I kinda hate it. But that’s how heart goes. We cannot really control it thought it’s ours. Weird huh? :p

Again, all I can do is just wait for another answer from the God. Answer for the questions in my mind, what to do now? Haha. That’s the problem, I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I think that all I can do is just crying though crying solves nothing. All I can say is just, saranghamyeon andwaelkka? can’t I just love him? But the fact is that he at the end choses someone else instead of myself.

I remember what Dae Woong said, “I don’t hate being with you.” And Mi Ho said,”but you can’t like me either.” That really hurts. But love is like that. You’re happy, you’re pathetic, you hurt yourself and someone else. This can’t be change, the nature of love. :P

Why do I need to regret???